By Carl M. Namahoe
My name is not important, but as you read this story my identity will be revealed. One might think that a good place to start would be at the beginning, but I prefer to start near the end.
The journey had been long and tedious, filled with excitement, surprises, disappointments, and success. The anxiety level had peaked, and tempers had flared, words exchanged, feelings and egos bruised. The attitudes over the months had slowly and progressively change from serving, to self serving and no one saw it coming for their focus was skewed. In my desire to serve God, I forgot that He did not come to be served, but to serve. Matt. 20:28 says; “just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life a ransom for many.”
I had put my own personal agenda ahead of His. I had established myself as the shepherd instead as one of His sheep in a flock of many. I became entwined in the reeds of deceit and embraced self serving. I was lured by my own self gratification that I soon found myself feeding my wants and not my needs. It is written; Phil.4:19 “And my God, will supply all your needs according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.”
I, in my desire to serve Him, forgot this and became entrapped in my own self serving attitude. It’s true that I am a born again child of God, bought and paid for by the blood of His Son, Jesus Christ. It is also true that I have a sinful nature, however, I am His child and cannot and must not use that as a ticket to continue to listen to the voice of the world. I am in the world but I am no longer of the world. My loyalty must be to God, first, foremost and always. I must do as my Lord said; Matt.6:33 “But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.” One might ask, “What things?” The answers to your questions are in Him. As I said in the beginning; “My name is not important, but as you read this story my identity will be revealed.” My focus became skewed by my own selfish attitude. The Holy Spirit made an adjustment in me and the scales fell from my eyes and I regained my focus. Who am I?
I am man, I am…you!
Written; 8/17/10 @ 10:45am